Xmas Pause

Christmas eve time has finally arrived, slowly the family gets together and have dinner, all together the celebration starts, yet  while some people are waiting for christmas to arrive the next day to open their gifts, some over look at the blessings that life is giving them.

Loving families, food in their tables, a warm place to be, a moment of peace and joy. Those are the true gifts that life grants us this christmas. Its so simple, but hugs, laughs, smiles and even a little mischief are wonderful pieces of life that gives us moments to treasure when the skies are gray and be able to go on with a smile through life.

Let Christmas remind you the tons of blessings that are in your path and the reasons to keep a smile in your face and the joy in your heart.

Merry Christmas.

Yuletide

The winter wind blew for the first time through the forest and the whole coven felt the announcement of the beggining of Yule. Men and women were gathered within the snow covered forest moved up towards the hilltop, among them a young boy ran through the woods feeling the cold wind on his face as he raced up, his boots smashed into the branches and leaves making them crack up while he kept running, breathing heavily and happily on the cold air he turned and saw people stopping on some trees while others kept moving towards the hilltop as he was. 

His cloak got stick on a tree making him almost meet the ground, he stumbled, pulled the warm fabric, left out a giggle and kept running up, a flute bouncing on his back as he held his bag tightly next to him.

Finally he reached the top of the hill and looked around, all the trees were being shadowed by a man or a women, they all pulled their respective flutes from their backs and a little box out of their bags. Everyone was ready and he had to get into his place, so quickly and with a huge smile on his face he started climbing the thick tree trunk facing up at the skies.

The cold air played with his hair as he kept moving close to the tree, his hands holding firmly to the rind, he arrived to one of the top branches and sit there. The whole hill descended towards him and the forest showed his elegance and magnificence in the night, while gazing at the breath taking view his sight got clouded and a pair of tears rolled down his face and arched into his smile. 

Deep in and out he took a slow breath and then looked up to the silver shinning moon it was time, he pulled a little box out of his bag and opened it. He then openned a little iron lamp with crystal sides, took a match from the box and lit the candle within the lamp. After this the rested his back on the tree and pulled the flute to his lips.

He started blowing a song that  went down hill into the woods as little lights were lit in all the trees around, slowly the whole hill was lit by the lamps and the flute song got carried away into the forest announcing that the Yuletide had begun. The brighter times were now coming to the land and the hill glow with the warmth of the spirit from the coven as they all started following the song one by one, the song quickly became the powerful bewitching anthem of joy and glory. 

Up high into the skies rose the music of the night carrying the coven's spirits, wishes and blessings into the heavens. The time of joy had begun and it light up the darkness of the forest as the flame of hope that was lit by everyone giving warmth and light into the dark and cold forest as a shinning pillar of hope the music and the light rose up into the heaven covering everyone's dreams giving hope and love into the world.

The time to rejoice has come, join the mainstay of the coven, we invite you, raise your spirit and feel the music of the night, let us illuminate the world in these times of darkness and bring the warmth of love to those who are in the cold of loneliness.

... Let Go

There comes one moment in life when everything seems so rough and the road seems going up hill. And as hard as it can be sometimes the true solution for this is just to realize that it is ourselves who are the responsible for this roughness.

The air seems to get thicker to us and our legs seem to be so tired of the road we've walked so far as we kept hoping to see the results we hoped to turn into our way. Our mind seems to blur on the frustration when our dreams seem to be so far away, so out of reach and the feeling of letting go comes up to us and the impulse to cut it off and let things go on a different way is harder on our hearts, aching as a blister made from the effort of keeping up the hope when times seemed to go against you.

To all those people out there who feel like that right now, to all of those who feel all their efforts and their hard work doesn't seem to show any results in the end and those who start feeling like they've wasted their time I just want to let them know that the pursuit of a dream is always a worth path to walk, hearing your inner voice and letting it guide you to a path that fulfills you may seem to take you nowhere for some people but the true journey in which you travel is really a crystallization from within that makes you grow and shine as a human being while we let our own individuality take us to places where we meet with the universe and we become one as we become one in time and space.

Those little moments are rarely seen by others, however they bring a sense of value to the self that goes beyond limits and people might not see it but they do sense it.

So if you feel that your travel is so hard that is pushing you to quit, remember that sometimes when you push all the energy into the universe to make something happen, it will move itself to make your wish happen and sometimes it's just time to let the universe work, handle control out, relax, let go of things a little bit and have faith that everything will happen in good time.

Sometimes when life turns uphill and makes us face the ground several times on the way we are picking up foolishly and it is not trying to make our goals impossible for us, but it's just trying to make us realize that we have to relax and let things flow.

Start your goals, work towards them, and trust the universe because slowly everything will fall in place and when things seem to go off track, just keep working towards your own goals and the rest will straighten up to your rute on time to make you arrive to your destiny. So make sure you are enjoying the journey because each path we walk, we will only walk it once in our lives.

Let go of ego, let go of control, let go of perfection. Relax. Breath. Enjoy the moment, there here and the now. Have faith in the universe that everything will work out fine and treasure every phase that knocks on your door. We came to this world to enjoy life and treasure it, be sure to remember that when sometimes focus is gone into things like work and debts. Life is here. Now. Make sure you enjoy it.

Entrance

The night blanket covered the cloudy skies of that winter evening on Mexico City, the wind blew it's cold air softly but constantly playing with the leaves on the trees through all of the Reform Passage Boulevard, it was cold and the cloudy night started showering softly the whole area with a soft breeze, a figure looked out through the glass on a hotel lobby into the dark night.

He walked out of the W Hotel and into the black town car that was waiting for him in front of the hotel and slide within the car holding an envelope into his hands. The small drops fell into the glass as he stared out into the night while the town car went by through traffic. He started adjusting his ponytail and fringe that was almost all the way down to his chin, he pulled the long brown hair back and took out his cellphone then looked out into the scenario again. The diming light of the cars and the places on the side of the streets combined with the rain slowly falling gave the whole scenario a wonderful dreamland look. The pavement was shining and the lights dancing around like fireflies.

The town car slowly stopped at a golden lit cover, having a carpet by its side, it was the elegant entrance of the Four Seasons Hotel, the door was opened and he went out of the car and into the carpet, he adjusted his jacket and started walking into the lightened lobby of the Hotel holding the envelope tightly. When he reached the middle of the room he looked up at the hanging chandelier and looked around hoping to find a familiar face.

Slowly she slide out of the car and wrapped her arm around her boyfriend's, her other hand picked up a bit of her dress and she moved through the carpet into the elegant lobby where she spotted the tall figure of a man who she hadn't seen in many years.  She held the envelope in her hand tightly and walked slowly calming her heartbeat, she knew he would be there but she didn't really expected him to.

Once the stunning couple was inside the lobby she turned to the man who accompanied her and placed her hand on his chest.

- Oh darling! Go get me a drink will you? I'll meet you in the bar. – She said and kissed his cheek, then turned and walked to the man she had spotted. He had changed, but his always eccentric look placed him on everyone's radar. When she arrived close to him, she moved slowly, carefully, not making a sound and then once she reached his ear she whispered- Cute ponytail.

He turned around and stared face to face to the girl who stood by his side through all those years of rough days and helped him when there was nobody who seemed to care. He smiled and chuckled.

- Well I certainly can't believe your waist didn't changed a bit! – He moved close to her and kissed her cheek. He continued while smiling- I hoped you would come. It has been so long. You look amazing, years have been of favor to you sweetie.

- Thank you, you look pretty stunning yourself and I do love that hairstyle, out of the ordinary, a bit too much and yet, still quite delicious, quite a bit you, as always- She replied with a laugh- Though I do must confess I am surprised to see you here. Those were rough times.

-Well – He raised his hand and waved the envelope to her- I was invited and it is RSVP so I wouldn't miss an invitation like that for the world.

- Of course – She chuckled – However those bitches did give you a hard time. I am surprised you are willing to see them again.

- Ten years my dear. It gives people a lot of punches and slaps and to be honest seeing them again is quite a promising show.- He looked around at the wonderfully lit lobby and the elegant furniture- And this scenario. Oh it does promises to be quite a surprising evening. Doesn't it? – He said stretching his arm for her to hold. 

- It does – She said and smiled while grabbing his arm and walking towards the bar were her man awaited them. It did seemed to be a night that promised something, however she felt uneasy at that thought and for a second the idea of that something not being a pleasant something made her want to run away from that place. 

Her thoughts were silenced by the echo of a shouting voice from the entrance of the Four Seasons. Her mind was shocked and turned to where the shout came from. The evening was just starting.

... Grateful ...

I sat down at the table and looked around at the circus happening around me, so many people, so many things going on. Everyone was trying to get everything ready, some of them seemed angry or frustrated because they wanted to make a perfect evening for the rest.

Plates being served, people running around, the sound of silverware clashing and the smell of the dishes prepared in the kitchen invaded the whole room. It was crazy. It was alive. It was something I just noticed. There was a happy mood, a joyfull mood. People wanting to please everyone and wanting to have a good time, arguing, being frustrated and stressed but all because they wanted the people they loved to have a wonderful time.

I stopped to think that I was truly grateful to have people around me. the warmth of love and care. People worrying and trying their best to make things perfect because they think that is what will make you happy. Being with people is trully a big fuss and it is crazy, but the feeling of being someone special for someone and that they would go to the point of getting through some big trouble just make one moment of a day, a special moment for you. Because to them, you matter. That moment with you, it matters.

I turned to the window and saw a guy walking through the street alone, a dry look on his eyes, like if excitement had left his life, and he kept walking strong and with an iron stare, nobody escaped his cold sight. I left out a sigh, some people underestimate the warmth of humankind, that warm essence that makes us be kind and have feelings and be noble to others.

All good feelings come from the gathering of people, those who withdraw themselves from that, they start loosing the sensitive sparkle of blessings. I looked back at the crazy circus that was developing on the next room. People shouting at each other, pushing themselves to bring things to the table, running around setting everything up.

Screaming, laughs and giggles came and went by as the kids ran everywhere. Then everyone started grooming up in another circus. Coat exchanges, make up touch ups, hair dos, people laughing some a bit desperate slapped the hands of those who interruped their grooming process.

Then they all went on to the table and sat down a spark on their eyes and a non visible smile hiden in their lips. I stood up, cleared my throat, look at all of them gathered around the table and addressed them:

"My Dear Family, I want to say that I am thankful for having all of you surrounding my table with your blessings, filling my days with your love and making my moments with you glitter with the magic your life brings to mine, I'd like to let you all know how thankful I am for the time you all took to share love and make the bounds between family tighter and stronger. I now want to thank the nature that produced all this ingredients, the men and women who worked to bring them closer to us, the wonderful cooks who transformed them into this marvellous dishes and god in heaven who now gives us life to enjoy them with the company of all here in this room..."

Steps

I felt the cold wind hitting my face as once more I felt the whip on my back and the feeling of being nothing flew through me once more.

Looking up at my dreams and the whole road to achieve them, thinking of how i should change to make my dreams come true, be another me. The whole process scared me and made me feel unable to do it, so I stand once more on the doorstep of letting people down, letting myself down.

I start feeling down once again. Then suddenly I think that all I've been through might be a waste, all my time, wasted, all my efforts, all my passion and desires. And just like that the little achievements come back to me, parading on my face all I've accomplished, the small things, that to me seem small, but things that for their own reasons other people haven't done.

It wasn't a waste of time, I've grown through this road, I've turned up a better me. I've accomplished things bigger than I thought I could. The obstacles kept coming and without knowing how I surpassed them all and turned everything to my favor. Every experience that has been on my path has helped me grow, on my fight to keep a smile on my face for the world I've overcome challenges that most would freeze on their feet.

Those small victories are just making me sure of one thing. I can do it.

I can do anything I want, I can achieve all my dreams, being me, I have more opportunities to shine in happiness and glory than I could ever have by faking myself. It's time to rise up and go get the personal glory I want. Yes there will be a lot of hardships on the way, let them come, I don't know how, but I will rise from them when the time comes to face them and I'll move closer to my goals, at my speed, at my pace and at my style.

I will let you see I could, because if your reason tells you, you can't do something. If your reason tells you you can't get one of your dreams. Then shut off your reason and go with your heart.

Strong I set a foot on the ground and stand up looking up to the skies. I can do it. I will do it. Because if I am not ready yet to be there, I will be one day, and then, I'll make my dreams come true. But my movement has already started, small steps, but steps towards my goal. Steps towards my personal victory and to show the world that a crazy being like me, was able to do what they said wouldn't be. I will shine because I am on the road to shine, and just because of that I am already shinning.

Wrapped Letters

I turned on the corner and started walking down the street and suddenly something flew right at me and slapped my face. I picked it up it was a pair of letters wrapped in red ribbons.

In the first one someone addressed another person and the second one seemed to be the reply. There was a week of time between them.

Curious I sat on a bench close by and opened the first one that read …

Hello […]:

I have been feeling like a burden lately that has over stayed his welcome, you are coming into your own and have the resolve to go after what you want in life. I could not be prouder. But I do not wish to be a burden or an imposition to you, perhaps it would be best if I say good bye now, and release you from having to be bothered with me.

I have opened my heart and found a wonderful heart in return but I cannot continue to burden you with my problems. You have things of your own to resolve and I know you will. My heart will ache but that is because I am alive, thanks to you.

Tears will be shed, but they will pass and life will go on. I know I may not be making any sense, but I feel that I am holding you back, making you continue to be with me when you have better things to do. I do not wish to be that burden.

I hope you will have the wonderful life you want. I hope you will find someone to love you deeper than the ocean, more sweetly then honey, and as completely as you will love them.

You have meant the world to me.

And for that reason I must let you go.

I hope you will remember a little bit of me.

I will never forget you.

Once I finished it, wiped my eyes for the tears I got by the brief yet sad note and opened the second one.

Dear {…}:

It’s been a while since the stars sparkled in my night sky and I had almost forgotten the warmth of the sun every single day. It has been thanks to you that my world had a twist for the better. I am grateful I met you because for you I wish to be a better person, a better version of me and every day I work to achieve that goal so that I can be someone who brings at least a little joy to your life.

Times have been difficult but I knew what I was stepping into since the beginning, I have to admit that it has not been easy, however I found out that I am able to take more than I believed. So I thank you, my partner, my blessing because whenever I feel like my life is on a gray spot and that there are no reasons why life is worth it, you come back to my memory and give me strength to switch my point of view and move forward in life.

You helped me regain a spark to life I thought it was lost and never coming back. The air through my lungs feels different, the sun on my face and the sweat in my skin, it all makes me feel alive. Thanks to you I now admire the beauties of life and I am able to feel truly grateful for all the blessings life has put into my path.

And now thanks to you now I am able to turn to life and stare at it with a smile on my face, with pride on my past and hope on a dream-come-true future.

So thanks for the time you stayed with me it has been a privilege and all the time you wish to stay by my side it would be an honor to share life with you…

Just please know that without you, my life would not be the same, it might just be a nobody's life, but to me you are a wonderful magnificent treasure who makes and entire difference in this world so I do wish you could stay with me because I trully do love you, slowly it happened but I am completely sure of it ...

...I love you…

Silently I put the letters down and got up, took a deep breath and walked back home. Romeo and Juliet love stories are not fiction, It’s just up to us to create our own story the way we want it to be.